dream on.

2005-11-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

this is boring. i am in class and i just thought of updating this blog.
i moved to somewhere but i know you'll find me there. hehehe. :) just look around.
i'm off to wherever.

blah. waaaah!!!

lookie

2005-11-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

if you can't find me here.
i'm off somewhere.

freak show.

2005-10-09T12:03:00.000+08:00

hahaha. nung isang araw sabi ng tatay ko umuwi na daw ako ng maaga. kasi never na ko umuwi ng maaga.

oh wells.

ang inuman, inuman. you throw up then you repeat the whole process again.
pero hindi ako gumagawa ng ganito. ibang tao naman ang ganun. heheheh.

can i just say, let's stop the drama and get back on track.
hahaha.
ganun talaga ang buhay eh, oh well, deal with it.

we think so much about things we ought not to think about, but we can't help ourselves but to do it.
life is such a crappy mistake and we never knew about it.
you get headaches and whatnot for stuff that wasn't meant for you.
or if ever it was yours, you just want to cry and it's not gonna do anything for you.
so there, goodluck to you.

party!

2005-09-18T13:59:00.000+08:00

danggay..... shobe! loved your party. hahaha. :) ang saya.
pero nakauwi ako ng 5 am. mas masaya yun. hahahahaha.
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

sky.

2005-09-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

half of what i didn't want to believe just showed the truth to me. ohwell, that's how life is supposed to be.
at any rate, i'm sick right now and i have a major headache.
i can't breathe properly. plus this cough is getting on my nerves.
i'm tired and my muscles are sore from all the things i've been doing for the past 4 days.
i went to greenbelt yesterday to watch a movie which was supposed to be a suspense. but we were laughing out loud.
i've been sleeping for more than 14 hours (though it yielded very bad results when i wake up.)
classes start on monday and i think i'm about to get a headache.
let's go back to where we started. drop it.

break.

2005-09-05T18:30:00.000+08:00

termbreak na. as for everything else, la salle people are bored. everybody's online for hours and everybody's been sleeping and whatever.

tangina. bakasyon ngayon. dapat magsaya pag bakasyon. or at least ako. kasi tototohanin ko na magiging non-existent na to next term. he he he.

2005-09-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

haha. there are things i owe to the world. it's too hard to explain bevause even i can't.

on the other hand, i can't wait to get out of here. or at least for the people to allow me to leave the house and forget all the problems i get everytime i wake up. that's why sometimes it's fun not to wake up in the morning because you don't know anything that happened already.

say goodbye to... whatever.

reyia[tots~] ++ !

2005-09-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

tots! haha.
you know why.
labshuuuuu. *.*

nyahaha. funny survey.

2005-08-27T02:37:00.000+08:00

funny survey. sasagutan ko.

i'm trying to make the people here to leave me alone

NAME ATLEAST 3 HIGHLIGHTS OF YOUR DAY:
1. last exam for the term!
2. inuman sa venue
3. felt really damned depressed

2.WHAT MAKES YOUR DAY COMPLETE?
= friends!

3..WHAT CAN SPOIL YOUR DAY?
really bad things in my life

4.IF YOU CAN LEAVE THE COUNTRY FOR THE
DAY, WHERE WOULD YOU GO AND WHAT
WOULD YOU DO?
Any place that considers killing a lot of people
by burning them alive legal >> bwahahaha. natawa ako dito. i remembered someone eh. *winkwink* hahahahaha.
anyway... ewan. gusto ko magrelax. punta tayong states. (weird)

5.WHAT'S THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED
TO YOU RECENTLY?
inuman?

6.DO YOU REGRET LIVING THE LIFE YOU HAVE RIGHT NOW?
yes. dapat namatay na lang ako waaaaaay back.

7.DEFINE YOUR CAPACITY FOR LOVE:
capacity? what the--?!

8.IF YOU CAN TAKE THE TIME OFF FROM WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING AND BE SOMEWHERE ELSE, WHERE WOULD
YOU BE?
somewhere kung saan makakausap ko ang mga tao na gusto ko makausap ng matino. ewan ko kung saan.

9.ARE YOU CHATTING RIGHT NOW? :
yes

10. WITH WHO?
tapat

11.WHO MAKES YOU HAPPY?
people.who.make.me.happy.

12.WHAT CAN BREAK YOUR HEART?
a lot. hahaha. drama.

13.WHO MAKES YOU SMILE?
friends. true friends.

14.WHO ARE YOU THINKING OF RIGHT NOW?
______________ nyahaha.

15.WHY?
kasi gusto ko?

16.WHAT'S YOUR SONG FOR HIM/HER?
missing you? hahahaha. labo.

17.WHAT'S YOUR CURRENT RINGTONE?
baby boy (yuck luma na but oh wells.)

18.SONG THAT'S PLAYING IN YOUR HEAD
RIGHT NOW?
district sleeps alone tonight (gaaaaah. this is the fault of melody's laptop)

19.HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
angry.

20.WHAT CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER/BAD
AT THE MOMENT?
ewan.

eeeee

2005-08-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

to everyone who reads this post, i would just like to tell you guys that my brain is not working right now.
and i'm supposed to be studying trig and comsci and i don't know anything.
goodluck.

2005-08-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

waaahhh. sabog na ko ngayon.
oh nooooo...
aral mode na.

finals.

2005-08-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

ang swerte naman ng mga taong walang finals. or ng mga taong 15% lang ang finals.

panu kami? namamatay na sa kakaaral. hahahaha. baliw na nga ako eh.

kape kape kape! i don't care if it inhibits digestion. i just need to be awake.

i hate this.

2005-08-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

i hate finals week. i don't know who the hell in the world enjoys exams, but it's definitely not me.

on the other hand, while i'm "trying" to rest this whole reading shit, i'm going to post some... whatever random post on my thoughts.

**

1. hate school but loves going to school. problema ko to high school pa lang. and i honestly have no idea how to deal with it. hahaha. not that it's a problem really, but this is usually the reason why my mom and i constantly fight - because i don't like staying here at home.

2. dealing with life's problems and who i tell them to. i don't tell my parents, and i choose the people i rant to. my life is an open book - "daw". but my even my 'bestfriend' doesn't know anything.

3. sabi nga ni reyia, it's hard to trust others. (because of some things in life) and believe me, this is so true. not that i don't trust anyone, it's more of, who should i trust the most? ang labo pero yung taong pinagkakatiwalaan ko ng sobra-sobra hindi ko nasasabihan ng kahit ano.

4. i wasn't insecure before. but it's back... i think.

5. i don't know myself that much. weird but true.

6. i found people who are better. kasi may iba naiwanan na ng panahon. hindi ako nangiiwan. naiiwanan lang ninyo ako kaya nagmumukhang ako yung nawawala.

7. i realized - mahaba pala ang pasensya ko. people rant to me all the time, and unbelievably natatagalan ko silang lahat. :)

8. bakit ganito na ang buhay ko?! sabi ng _ ko: tatanga-tanga na daw ako. haha. kung pinagbigyan nyo lang ako sa mga gusto ko noon siguro hindi nyo sasabihin sa akin yan ngayon.

**

bwahahaha. lintek yan.
anyway, back to finals mode.

stop.

2005-08-17T09:41:00.000+08:00

1 more week and a half. and then it's all gonna end. YES! tapos na ang first term and hopefully i won't have to do all this shit all over again.

**

have you ever felt that you've found something and you just realize it's the best you could ever have? wala lang. parang lahat nalang ng meron ako sa buhay ko ngayon ganyan ang nararamdaman ko. either i wasn't happy with my "past" (better coined as "high school") and i was too caught up with doing things that won't change me. at all.

i just realized. i'm not close with my family. and i'm an ONLY child.
labo dude. i'm supposed to be closer to them than anybody else.
kaso hindi eh. oh well.
(oh and by the way, pupunta lola ko sa bahay this week. waaaahhh. that means i'd be stuck going everywhere during the weekend. patay. finals week pa naman. SHET!)

sometimes we just have to stop and think about some things.
sometimes we must remember that's what friends are really for.
sometimes we should realize that everything can be better.

**

on the lighter side (aaaacck.), i don't know how to defend our machine project. and i have to pass the freakin' course.
good luck. HAHAHAHA. ampucha.

** paging lime! tulungan mo ako gumawa ng layout sa termbreak! hehehehe.

^_^

2005-08-16T14:13:00.000+08:00

tapat pa rin!
happy 20th tapat!
*we have a loooooooooooooong way to go. :)*

tama na!

2005-08-09T01:20:00.000+08:00

hoy mga tao! tama na ang inuman. ilang araw na kayong sabog ah! tama na yaaaaaaaan. (at least ako hindi na umiinom. hehehehe.)

green place ulet?!

2005-08-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

oo. nag-green place kami ulet kagabi. at wala na akong oras para mag-blog kagabi. hahahahaha. sabi ni ingua ilagay daw namin sya sa blog nya. hehehe. free drinks eh. naka-anim na case ata kami (c/o david na din).

sa mga nalalasing. wag na kayong malasing.
hehehehe.
yun lang po. :)

*note: from friday last week hanggang kahapon, nakakailang quotable quotes na ba tayo? hahaha. ang dami na noh?

hehe. :)

2005-07-31T19:41:00.000+08:00

hay. back to normal na tayo. tapos na ang lahat. hehehe. sa march na kami ulet magpapabagsak ng tao. wahahahaha.

sayang. kulang ng isa. oh well. okay lang yun. sa march, kumpleto na kayo. heheheheh.
evilness aside, balik normal na ang buhay. less stress (hindi ko sinabing wala na ang stress kasi forever na yan dyan), more time for whatever. wish ko lang makakalabas pa din ako sa bahay na to after all the going out i've done for the past week! (or months.) hehehe. okay lang yun. magiisip pa ako ng iba pang alibi. hahahahaha.

hahahaha. wala lang.
it's not in the headache but in the pikit-pikit of the person.
labo noh?

haha. update.

2005-07-27T10:13:00.000+08:00

oo. maguupdate na ako. since apparently i haven't been posting anything with sense in this blog, i have finally decided to write about something. you know. something worth reading...

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hahahaha. may sense noh?
kanina pa ko akyat baba sa computer lab... botohan kasi ehhh. nyah.
oh wells.

hahahaha.

2005-07-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

ang sakit ng ulo ko. hahahaha. wala lang.
ang dami ng nangyari hindi pa din ako nagpopost!

natatamad pa din ako. hahahaha.

parteeeee.

2005-06-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

party kagabi! saya. hehehe. kahit mejo inulan kami sa school at nabasa ng todo todo, nakadating naman kami sa racks el pueblo ng matino tino ang itsura. so yun, ate dinner at racks. at nakikiinom lang kami ng vodka kay beni (waaah. sarap.). oo madamot si anil! ayaw nya mamigay ng vodka. pabalik balik na lang ata kami sa taas at baba ng racks. pumunta kami ni reyia sa podium at bumalik. andun na sina inah with an h. naginuman na. nilibre ako ni reyia ng citron! (yay!) hahahaha. tapos... naginuman pa din. blah blah blah. saya ng buhay party noh? nagmodel sila oli (pang-model ka pala. wahehe) at sila nyx sumayaw. dumating sina champ at mayonnaise. tumugtog. may nagwawala sa labas. gumegewang-gewang na ang lakad ng mga tao. hahaha. oo tipsy ako kagabi. pero okay lang. saya naman. nagwawala kami sa car ni mikki nung pauwi na. i swear di ko na-take sina jc sa kotse. ibang klase humirit. ayun. nakauwi naman ako ng matino. tulog nga lang. wahehe. -_-x

people. survey.

2005-06-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

astig ng people survey na to. nagiiba sagot ko if ever nabasa nyo na to somewhere at ako din ang sumagot.

First, name 20 people you know.(these are the
first that came to mind)

1. Beni
2. Charston
3. Reyia
4. Arnel
5. Jigjig
6. Melody
7. Tsard
8. Chastine
9. Boni
10. Noelle
11. Arden
12. Jenny
13. Miki
14. Prijm
15. Cals
16. Ingua
17. KC
18. Jade
19. Gracielle
20. Nyx

Then, fill this out according to the people you
chose!!
------------------------------------------------------------------

Who is 8 going out with?
HAHA. di ko alam. sino nga ba?

Is 9 a boy or a girl?
boy

Would 11 and 12 make a cute couple?
hinde. maingay pa pareho yun. HAHAHA.

How about 18 and 4?
ewan. most likely hinde.

What grade is 17 in?:
Junior

When was the last time you talked to 12?:
kanina lang. before i went home.

What is 6's favorite band?:
do ko lam. may favorite band ba si melody?

Does 1 have any siblings?:
yes. a lot.

Would you ever date 3?:
hell NO! ahno ba.. pareho kaming girls.

Would you ever date 7?:
no. haha.

Is 16 single?:
yes. i think so. :)

What's 15's last name?
Suntay

What's 5's middle name?:
di ko lam. jigs! anu middle name mo?!

What's 10's fantasy?:
ewan. boys? hahaha.

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
erm. that's odd. what's up with this question?

What school does 20 go to?:
DLSU

Tell me a random fact about 11
likes Britney Spears

And 1:
beni cruz is beni cruz. and that's it.

Where does 9 live?
Las Pinas

What's 4's favorite color?:
Blue!

Would you makeout with 14?:
NO! hell NO!

Are 5 & 1 best friends?:
erm. odd. nagmatch yung question. pero oo. mag-bestfriend sila.

Do you like 2?:
oo naman. gov ko sya eh.

Does 8 like 19?:
dude. they're both girls.

How did you meet 15?
tapat. makulet eh.

Is 12 older than you?
no. i'm older by a day.

Is 1 the sexiest person?
beni! sexy ka daw?! hahaha. intelligent na lang!

Have you ever given 13 a hug?
not that i remember. hinde.

blob blog+

2005-06-22T09:32:00.000+08:00

it's blog time! hahaha. yuck.
walang pinatutunguhan ang visual basic sa computer na to. lintek. dapat pala natulog na lang ako. haaaaaaay.
ayoko na umuwi. nakakatamad na.

i don't want to wait.

2005-06-19T13:37:00.000+08:00

i feel like i'm lost nowhere.
hahaha. ang labo ko noh? pero wala lang. eto ako ngayon... nakatunganga sa bahay. walang magawa. gustong umalis. pero eto. nakatunganga pa din. haaay.
waaa. sana maayos na buhay ko. nalilintek na ko. :(

hay buhay.

2005-06-15T09:58:00.000+08:00

lintek na buhay to. wala akong magawa. or sobrang dami ko ng ginagawa na di ko narerealize ang dami na pala nito. hahaha. ang labo ng buhay ko. hay. nakakainis. la pa din makaintindi sa kin sa bahay. wahahahaha. drama mode. oo. nagddrama ako. ayoko kasi sa bahay eh. nakakatamad tumunganga sa bahay na yun. alam nyo bang wala akong magawa ngayon. kasi ako ay nasa comsci2 class at hindi nakikinig kay teo! wooooohoo! lolz. baliw na ko. walang kwentang update to. seryoso! sana matapos na ang umaga ko. mas productive ako pag wala akong ginagawa. hahahaha. galing noh? weird talag aako. ranting. dalawa lang ata kami ni lime na naka-on ang computer at nakatunganga sa kawalan. alam nyo kasi hindi ko naman maintindihan ang sinasabi niteo eh. umaasa lang ako na nagegets ko din ang lesson after one day dahil sa sobran bagal amgprocess ng utak ko. look! the form of miss teo is pink and purple. blah. girly na pala sya ngayon. hahahaha. labo noh. sabi ni lime naguupdate daw ako ng blog! oo naman noh! anu bang ginagawa ko ngayon. wala nga akong magawa eh. hindi pa ko nakatingin sa keyboard so nagmumukha akong tanga ngayon. hahahahaha. ako ay magbabasa ng blog ng ibang tao ngayon. hahaha. grabe ang saya ng buhay ko ngayon. memorize ko na pala ang keyboard ngayon. ahhahaha. pwede bang gumawa na kami ng project na ito. kasi mejo nawawalan na ng punto ang class na ito kung nakikinig lang kami sa kanya eh. diba dapat computer class ito?? hahaha. labo. ranting me. walang kwentang post to. freewritng to tsong. diba lime? ahahaha! reply ka naman. wala na talaga akong masulat eh. kaya lang ako nagttype ngayon. nyahahaha. tamad. alam nyo bang late ako dumating ngayon. hahaha. actually hindi ako late ngayon eh. pumunta pa kasi ako kay reyiatots at nagayos ng mga bagay bagay. tulog pa pala ang gaga. ayoko mag-engltri ngayon. yuck. wahehehe. ayoko din mag zooltwo ngayon. double yuck. lalabas nalang ako habang may class. HAHAHAHAH.

complete ranting.
di ko alam kung anu ang sinusulat ko.
di ko alam kung anu ang tina-type ko.
so napakawalang kwentang mundong to.
ang labo ko.

**

NOTE: ang tanga tanga ng post na ito. paguwi ko mamayang gabi saka ako magpopost ng matino-tino. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. seryoso.

tell me.

2005-06-12T16:50:00.000+08:00

i miss being who i was before but i love being who i am right now. labo noh? it's probably coz i'm just so freaking confused right now (for no apparent reason). gaaaaah. i'm not used to this. come on. what's wrong with me? *bonk bonk* i must've gone mad or something. egh. thinking for too long confuses me. hahaha. sorry ang labo ko. i'm just ranting napipikon ako sa nangyayari sa kin ngayon eh. di ko na alam ang gagawin ko. waaaaaa. hahahaha. bum.

wishing.

2005-06-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

tired.
and still working on it.
hahaha.

regardless. school has begun piling all over on top of me.
plus the fact i also have tapat to attend to. not that i'm complaining, i'm probably just shocked from all the fast paced things we've been doing. anyway, soon i'll be back on track. hehehe.
i've been wondering, where all of this started. trust me, i still haven't found the answer to that.
hahaha.
i think i'm about to live in school. [not literally ha.] but it's sorta like that. welcome to my home. hahahaha.

aja aja fighting!

2005-06-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

aja aja fighting COS!
do your best. and everything will just fall into place.
hatak!
wahahaha.

aja aja fighting!

waaaaaaaa....

2005-06-01T09:33:00.000+08:00

this is boring! waaaaa...

the computer programs here in school suck.
ask hope pa. HAHAHAHAHA.
boring.
boring.
boring.

mamaya na lang ako magppost ng matino.

hate.

2005-05-24T00:43:00.000+08:00

i can't believe people like them exist.
i can't believe they keep doing this to me.
i hate you (at some point) for doing this to me.
just so you know, it hurts.
stop insulting others, coz you people aren't perfect.
stop insulting me because i am who i am and you can't do anything about it.
stop saying words like that about my friends, because you'd never understand me.
i know what i'm doing.
i know what you want for me.
i'm doing everything to please you.
what else do you want me to do?!
succumb to being the low life kid you expect me to be?
or be better than those people you keep comparing me to?
you people confuse me too much.
i don't know what you want me exactly to do.
i decide for myself.
because it's my life not yours.
i do hope you understand me.
even if i know you won't. EVER.
i'm here to destroy what you think about me.
because you're wrong.
you're wrong.
you're wrong.
i found better friends than you did when you were my age.
maybe that's why you people never appreciated what friendship really is.
because you never found true friends.

**

to my friends. especially those who i go with right now: you guys mean so much to me. if there's one thing you people should know, you're always gonna be a priority. for everything. and to those special kinda people in my life... you changed everything. literally. and i'm happy about it.

2 dayyyyyyyys!

2005-05-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

2 days na lang pasukan na! wahahahaha.
i can finally get out of this house. wahehehehehe.
nga pala, lumabas ako kanina. went to beni's birthday thing. sa yellow cab lang. onting kain and stuff.
tas ngayon gusto ko kumain ng four seasons at ng spaghetti and meatballs.
damn it.
ahahahahaha. di pa ko nagddinner! bukas na nga lang. hehehehe.
wala lang.

pasukan naaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! yay! :)

asan ba ko?

2005-05-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

asan ba ko lately? ahahahaha.
bum. summer bum. sobrang bored na ko, i can't contain myself inside this house. i want to go out, but the people here don't want me to. wahaha. saya noh. thanks ha. lalo lang akong nabato dito sa bahay.
on another note, went to school yesterday for LPEP. ngayon andito ako sa bahay dahil hindi ako pinayagan umalis. kelangan ko pumasok bukas before the people in school kill me. technically kaya ako wala sa school ngayon kasi ang mag-LPEP eh ang CCS. at mejo. blah. wala lang.
head hurts. no idea why. hahahaha.
at kahapon, that was the first time again (since pasukan) na umuwi ako ng late. can't wait for classes to start. nasusuka na ko sa itsura ng bahay namin eh. ate in shakey's yesterday with beni, gracielle, rose, nyx and charston. sumunod na lang sina chastine, jigjig and kristina after a while. pati pala si miki. waaaaa. sumakit ulo ko after. di ko lam kung anung nangyari. badtrip.
haaaaaaay. get me outta here.

silence.

2005-05-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

the silence is defeaning.
make noise again.

life is so confusing.
i can't see anything that's behind it.
look. i must be seeing the wrong things for the wrong reasons

college **

2005-05-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

wham. been cleaning my email for the past 4 (?) hours. haha. found this somewhere in the 754 blah emails i got since i have no idea since when. got this 2003, few months before i graduated high school.
read it. wala lang weird. i have some side comments. yung iba ayoko na isulat. akin na lang yun.

**

COLLEGE LIFE

You learn a lot when you go to college. hell yeah

You learn that pulling an all-nighter means staying up all night to study for a test you will then sleep through. oo noh. especially if you don't understand the thing altogether.

You learn to appreciate the taste of beer - the cheapest of all alcoholic beverages. oh yeah. really. love teambuildings too.

You learn that you can roll out of bed 10 minutes before class and go to class looking like shit - and no one will notice or care. wish i could do that. but then i always go to class looking like crap.

You learn you really can do things for yourself without your parents looking over your shoulder - but you also learn you never realized how nice it was to have them there, just in case. i guess you're right. but they're still not leaving me! waaaa.

More than anything, however, you learn how much your friends really mean to you. College friends come to mean a lot to you, but they can never compare to your friends from home. sometimes there are things that doesn't work for me. and sometimes i have to disagree on things. i disagree on this.

Your friends from home teach you the meaning of friendship during your college years; because you are apart from them you tend to express your feelings more - you learn how much these people truly affect your life. haha. i guess the world just turned upside down.

You've got your best friend who exemplifies friendship - s/he calls at least once a week, sends email everyday and even sends you real mail. You feel like you never left each other... s/he still knows everything about you, and even over the internet s/he can tell when something is wrong. S/he teaches you that distance doesn't have to change a friendship at all. :) you know who you are. and i'm with you.

Then there is your other best friend.

S/he rarely calls or writes and s/he doesn't do the email thing. At times you think s/he has forgotten about you... until you hear from her/him. You hear from her/him for the first time in almost two months and nothing has changed. You are still you and s/he is still her/him - even though you're never as close as ever, you are still the best of friends. You find yourself expressing to her/him just how much s/he means to because you realize it now more than ever. S/he teaches you that true friends are friends in the soul... no separation can tear them apart. and you know who you are. and i'm still with you. :)

Then there are those friends that you sort of lost touch with those last few months of high school and during the summer. You were busy, they were busy... but somehow, the magic of email has brought you closer together than you ever were in four years at the same school. You share secrets, heartaches, and joys... it's another person who cares about you as long as you will care about them too. Away from all the pettiness of high school, you've finally formed an adult relationship... and you realize just how great a friend this person is. hehehehe. :)

Suddenly, the people that you thought for sure you would lose touch with in college are the ones you keep in closest contact with - and you miss them more than you ever thought possible. miss ko na nga kayo.

Sadly enough, there are also the friends that you were closest to in high school who drift too far for you to hold on to. You've both changed and suddenly you don't have much to say to each other. ouch. wham.

But these people teach you a lesson too - they make you value the others, the ones you have stayed close to, that much more. These distant friends, though you miss them when you rarely think of them, show you who your forever friends really are - and they make you appreciate those forever's much more.

College is rough. College severs some bonds and solidifies others...it puts a distance between you and the ones you love before. But it teaches you so much. It forces your real friends to come to the front, while the rest take their places in the shadows of your memories.

In college you lose some people - but through real friendship and the strength of the soul (which is where real friends join as one) you keep the ones you will need most in your life. You learn the real meaning of the quote: If you press me to say why we were friends, I can say no more than it was because she was her and I as me.

The people who fit that mold are your forever friends. So send this on to those forever friends. Send it to the ones you keep in touch with. And send it to the ones you don't - just to tell them how much you appreciate all they did for you.

And send it to your new college friends, who hopefully will someday too be your forever friends. People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there.

You've got to dance like nobody's watching, and love like it's never going to hurt...

move forward.

2005-05-06T14:17:00.000+08:00

hello.
nababaliw na ata ako. bat ba kasi ang dami kong iniisip ngayon?
dapat ata hindi ako naiiwan dito sa bahay mag-isa eh. kung anu-anu na lang ang iniisip ko.
at wala pa din nakakaintindi sa akin dito sa bahay na to.
dagdag mo pa yung hindi ko maintindihan kung bat ako nagiisip ng mga bagay na to.
waaaaaa. ang labo ko.
help me.

**

waaaaaaahh. i gave up na. on something i wasn't expecting i'd give up on.
bwiset.
argh... no. no. no.
hehe. i also decided to fight. for well. stuff. it's something else not related to that thing up there.
tangina. wala na ata ako sa tamang pag-iisip after sinabi ko yan ah.
hehehe. pero sabi nga nila. kaya ko naman.
so what's the big deal.
wish ko lang kaya ko nga. hehe.
tulungan nyo akoooooooooo. pressure. pressure. *kablam*

**

i must be dreaming.
what's wrong with me?
help. pa din. help. help. help. help. help. help.
you're confusing meeeeeeeeeee. :(

teambuilding.

2005-05-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

teambuilding kahapon! hehehe. 41 hours akong gising (6 am april 30 - 12 mn may 2) hahaha. solid. longest to ever. technically, kasi pinakamatagal ko ata isang buong araw pa lang. hehe. anyway, let's just get a rundown of events sa mga nangyari nung teambuilding.

1. late ako dumating. oo. 1:30 na ko dumating. hehe. kasalanan ko na. soreee.
2. nag lrt/mrt kami papunta sa sm north edsa. ayus. hehehe. laftrip kasi ang ingay namin. hehe. sinundo naman kami nina kc at peter para ihatid papunta sa house.
3. stopover muna sandali sa petron. (amazed ako may basement parking sila!)
4. punta sa house ni kc para mag-setup *daw*. nagswimming si beni at john. at kami ay namalengke.
5. nagluto kami pabalik. masarap naman luto namin ah! (cool noh? hehe.)
6. kami ang nagvvideoke na parang lasing kahit wala pa kaming naiinom. (haha. normal noelle mode. lolz.)
7. deeeeener! hehe. tas activities na masaya! (ugat-ugat-gat! hehe!) tapos sweeeeemeng na tooooooo!
8. naginuman na ang mga taong to. hehe. mejo lasing na si beni ng maaga at nagtext pa si ben na pupunta sila. hahaha.
9. lasing ata si oli dahil sa red horse na puro abo. hehehe.
10. magaling kami ni reyia magtanggal ng kalasingan ni beni. hehehe. oh diba? matino pa siya pagdating nina saint, elvin, russ at ben! :)
11. kinain nila yung iba naming food. akala ko ba busog na kayo galing sa greenbelt?!
12. nagsimula kami magwala pag-alis nila.
13. inuman na tooooo. hehehe. at videoke. at sangkatutak na bonding moments.
14. nagvvolleyball ang mga lasing. hayop kayo.
15. nadulas si rondel sa stairs. HAHAHA. lasing.
16. lasing din si oli. hahahaha. inom ng inom tong mga taong to.
17. loko-loko si charston. di ko lam kung anu ang pumasok sa utak nun at nagsimula na lang mag-iinom ng sangkatutak na shot ng tequila.
18. iniyakan ako ni reyia kasi nawawala na daw brain cells nya.
19. nalasing din si charston. uto-uto pa pag lasing.
20. nauntog sa pader! hahahahaha. bukol. akala mo kung sinong magaling uminom. suka naman ng suka.
21. hinimatay si beni dahil kay charston.
22. mahirap alagaan si charston na lasing. si beni hinimatay na nga may gana pang buhatin si charston papunta sa banyo.
23. nahima-himatay ulet si beni after nun. kulet mo din noh?
24. kinakaladkad nina ej at enzo si charston papunta sa banyo. hehehe.
25. bakit kayo nagsabay?! ang pewky/kepy tandem mahirap alagaan ng sabay! HEHEHEHE.
26. na-revive naman namin si beni at napatahimik si charston.
27. not until nagsimula na naman magwala si charston. "masakeeeeeeeeeeeeet! ang sakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! mommeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!"
28. mas maingay pa sya sa lahat ng manok na nasa bulacan nung umagang yun.
29. siniksikan ng panyo sa bibig si charston ni beni.
30. literal na gising ako buong araw.
31. okay naman ang breakfast. yung isang fried rice na luto ni enzo lasang popcorn. (LABO.)
32. pahinga mode muna mga tao. buti naman. pero di pa din kami nakatulog ni melody. nakatulog naman sina reyia, charston, beni, ej, enzo, jigjig, chastine, denver, jade, revie, peter, nyx, mae, gracielle, nicole, yummy, noelle, oli, rondel, etc. etc. etc! hahahahaha.
33. buhay pa naman kami nung nagising silang lahat.
34. relax relax at bonding bonding na kami afterwards.
35. swimming ulet after. hehehe.
36. tas uwian na! :)
37. tulog silang lahat sa l300. except kami naman ni beni ang gising ngayon.
38. di kami umuwi agad. nag-G4 pa kami. kumain pa kami sa G4.
39. nag-timezone din kami after nun.
40. at nag-YM pa pagkauwi.

ayus noh? kala mo walang pagod eh. pero meron! meron! pagod na pagod dapat ako... but noooooooo. gising ako hanggang 12 at nagy-YM pa kami ni beni! hehe. pinilit ko lang gisingin sarili ko nung 12 kasi napapagalitan na ko. hahaha. anyway, yun lang naman ang nangyari sa min. wala na kong naaalala na nakalimutan ko at wala naman akong balak maging detalyado mag-kwento kasi sobrang haba nun. hehehehe. la lang. yung pics nasa lj ni noelle. tignan nyo na lang. :)

forever.

2005-04-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

i miss going to school. i miss the people there. something went wrong with my "miss meter". hahahahaha. i miss the wrong people. (not exactly) i meant i miss the people i see too much of rather than those i haven't seen in ages. wahahaha. labo ko.
it's funny how i like staying in school. i miss the pepole i'm with. i guess it's my driving force right now. it's my driving force before i blow up here at home. HAHA.
i told you before. i don't like it here at home. they interfere with my life too much. it's like being caged in a free space. you know what i mean. it sucks.
blah. sana pasukan na lang ulit. mas relaxing pa mag-stay sa school kesa sa bahay eh. kahit alam mong bugbog ka na sa kakaaral okay lang. at least may kasama ka na nakakaintindi sayo. alam mo yun?
hindi ako gumagala. nasa school lang ako at nakatunganga. pero may mga kasama ako. HAHAHA. saya noh?

*.*

wah ang gulo nyo! hahahaha. okay lang.

1000 words.

2005-04-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

i know that you're hiding things
using gentle words to shelter me
your words were like a dream
but dreams could never fool me
not that easily
i acted so distant then
didn't say goodbye before you left
but i was listening
you'll fight your battles for me
far too easily
save your tears cause i'll come back
i could hear that you whisper as you walk through that door
but still i swore to hide the pain when i turn back the pages
shouting might have been the answer
what if i cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
but now i'm not afraid to say what's in my heart
for a thousand words
have never been spoken
they'll fly to you
crossing over the time
an instance holding you
suspended on silver wings
a thousand words
one thousand confessions
will cradle you
making all of the pain you feel seem far away
they'll hold you forever
the dream isn't over yet
though i often say i can't forget
i still relive the day
you've been there with me all the way
i still hear you say
wait for me i'll write you letters
i could see how you stand with your eyes to the floor
but still i swore
to hide the doubt when i turn back the pages
anger might have been the answer
what if i hold my head and said that i couldn't wait
but now i'm strong enough to know it's not too late
cause a thousand words
call out through the ages
they'll fly to you
even though we can't see
i know they're reaching you
suspended on silver wings
one thousand words
one thousand embraces
will cradle you
making all of your weary days seem far away
they'll hold you forever
one thousand words
have never been spoken
they'll fly to you
they'll carry you home
and back into my arms
suspended on silver wings
ohhhh
and a thousand words
call out through the ages
they'll cradle you
turning all of your lonely years to only days
they'll hold you forever

*/*

aliw. ganda ng song. hehe.

ang boring. grabe. bato.

2005-04-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

waaah. gads bato. ang boring sa bahay. kaya ngayon balik skwela ako! di para mag-aral... kundi para magpatrain at para... tumambay! hahaha. joke lang. pero seryoso. summer fun ko na yun. *daw* hahaha. totoo sinabi ni beni. ala na kaming summer. kasi boring pag naiiwan ka sa bahay.

anywaaaaaaaaaaaay. wala lang. ang boring. nasa 42 nakami ni beni sa zest riddle na yan. in fairness. gumagalaw kami. hahahahaha.

boring.

alangya.

2005-04-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

sakit sa ulo. hahahaha. riddle grabe! ang nagagawa ng boredom. hahahahahaha. oh wells.

salamat kei beni. puro hints. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

deeeeeeeeees eeeeeeeees naaaaaaaaaat gooooooooooood.

2005-04-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

deeeeeeeeeees eeeeeeeeeees soooooooooo naaaaaaaaaaaaat goooooooooooooooood. i am soooooooooooooooooooo bored. gimeeeeee sooooooooooooooomething to dooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....................

think. then think again. till you find something to do.

2005-04-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

bored. really bored. i was thinking, sabi ni jo i took the wrong turn. hahaha. ewan. she was wondering if she was still normal. i know i'm not. gads. this is how life really sucks. people keep comforting me (wonder if it's really doing me any good...) but hey, i like the feeling.

i'm boreeeeeeeeeeeeed. get me something to dooooo. nga pala. i was really surprised sa reaction ng magulang ko ah. whoa.

thanks ha.

2005-04-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

thanks ha. to those who made me smile. tots! wala lang. :) comfort zone ka pala. :) hehe. dun sa nagulat sa ginawa ko kanina. hehehe. sorry ah. kinda nagwawala ako. :p at sa mga taong bigla na lang nakakaalam ng problema ko... wala lang. okay lang. thanks pa din. :)

life sucks. and you damn know it.

2005-04-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

like blah. i'd just like to share... i hate staying in this house. it's like being in a prison with the really nice people in it. it's not like hate ko ang mga tao dito sa bahay, ang sa kin lang, hindi ko macontain ang sarili ko sa loob ng bahay na to. sumasakit ang ulo ko, di ko kaya magstay dito. wala kasi akong magawa ehh. plus, add the fact that no one could understand me in this household. parang... kei fine, magkwento ako. "yay! i passed! i got 1.0!!!" i'd scream after getting my course card from that effing hard subject. people i know who suffered the same thing would say "yay! you survived!" but my parents would say, "eh bat yan lang?!" wah. i don't like this. blah. ilang araw na kami nagtatalo dito sa bahay. i always want to go out. i don't want it here sa house. ilang araw na din kami nagaaway and it always ends up pinaiiyak nila ako. mahina ako sa kanila. di kami magkandasundo sundo dito sa bahay. nangingialam pa ng gamit. naiinis na ko. get me out of here!!!

*you know it's more than this... di ko lang masulat lahat. argh!*

headache. meme.

2005-04-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

i am so bored. sumasakit na ang ulo ko sa kaka-tulog. meme muna.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Kia
2. Kristyl
3. Kiatots
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Approachable. hahaha.
2. Friendly.
3. Maingay.
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Nagtatago ng galit.
2. Tamad.
3. Magastos. Sobra.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Cockroaches
2. Bumagsak. waaahh!
3. Losing someone, something and.. you know. stuff.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Cellphone.
2. Wallet na dapat may lamang pera!
3. Yung necklace ko na may cross.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Shorts
2. Sleeveless shirt
3. Undies
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. go kart
2. bungee jumping
3. dumaldal ng dumaldal for a reason
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Trust.
2. Respect.
3. Understanding.
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I love my friends so much.
2. I don't like staying here in this house with the people in it.
3. Masungit ako.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes.
2. Smile.
3. Personality.
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Mang-iwan.
2. Hindi maging concerned.
3. Magalit ng sobra sa taong di ko kayang kagalitan.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Mag-YM!
2. Matulog.
3. Umalis ng bahay.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Get out of the house.
2. Stay out of the house.
3. Do something productive.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Medicine.
2. Masteral.
3. Magtuturo ako sa La Salle! wahahahaha!
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Bora.
2. States.
3. Asian country. (China, Japan, Taiwan, basta nasa Asia!)
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. di
2. ko
3. alam
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Masaya ako dapat.
2. Makita ko lahat ng kaibigan ko.
3. Mag- dasal.

hehe!

2005-04-13T10:48:00.000+08:00

waheheheh! nag-EK kami ng aking blockies kahapon! yayness! :p ang saya-saya! ahahahha! ang sumama: ako, si rose, peng, jo, ivy, gwen (oo sumama si gwen!), charky, danika, hope, rocky, dinno, lime, migs, roy, marvin (yes! pumunta si marvin kahit nawawala sya sa block...), lester g, at si fickis! hahahah. in fairness madami dami na din yun. hehehe. :)

anyway... the misadventures of bio42 para lang makapunta sa EK. like blah.
misadventure number 1. waaaaaaaah. wala kaming kotse! so ayun nag-rent pala ng kotse si peng. kaso biglang dumating si dinno at sabi nya, hindi daw pwede car nya kasi color coding daw yung car nya! oh nooooooo... pero eto naresolve naman kasi nafigure out namin kung panu sila hindi mahuhuli. hahahahah.
* side adventure number 1. muntikan na sila mahuli 3 times. una, sumakay sila ng taxi ng sobra sila. dalawa sila sa harap tas apat sa likod. actually bawal yun pero nakalampas naman sila. pumunta kasi sila sa condo ni dinno para kunin yung car nya eh.
misadventure number 2. dumating kami ng sobrang aga sa EK. as in sobrang aga. mga 1 hour din kami nagintay ah. hahahahah. pero okei lang. :)
misadventure number 3. si roy ay nasusuka sa rides. hahahahahah.
misadventure number 4. hindi kami sinundo ng dad ni rose at mejo na-strand kami sa shell mamplasan exit. the bad thing about this eh hindi namin alam kung asan kami. shet!

hahahaha. pero eto naman ang masaya sa EK trip eh.
unang sinakyan namin eh yung dodgem! yay! hahahahha. wild. ang dami dami namin na nagbabanggan dun. waheheheh! towards the end na stuck kami sa edges. hahah. how sad. sumunod naman eh ang roller skater na... ewan ko ba kung roller coaster yun. hahahah. langya. isang buong block sa isang ride. saya noh? hahaha. next ride na tinopak kaming puntahan eh yung rialto. bleh. ang baduy i swear. hahah. pero okei lng. pinagttripan lang namin yun. heheheh. nakakahilo sya actually. next naman na pinagtripan namin eh. tas after nun naglogjam kami! wheeeeeeeee! hahahah! may fear pala si gwen sa log jam! nagwawala sya! hehehe. natatakot kasi sya "90 degrees parallel to the ground" daw kasi. hahaha. pero ayun saya naman. hahahah. kasi di ako masyado basa! :p hehe. tsaka sobrang scripted na kami sa picture. nyahahah. lolz. ayun, nag-flying fiesta muna kami kasi gusto namin "magpatuyo". according to my blockmates, we should make use of the "centripetal force" para kami ay matuyo. hahahaha. eck. tas nag-4d kami after. hahahah. nag-freak out si hope. nyahahahah. lolz. after nun uhhhh... rio grande. eto lang masasabi ko... for the first time.. NGAYON LANG AKO NABASA NG SOBRA-SOBRA!!! basang basa ako! na hanggang gabi hindi matuyo-tuyo ang pantalon ko! waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! i reek of volvox and euglena and chlamydomonas! hahaha. joke lang. pero yech. ang lagkit kasi after eh. waaaahh. after nun tumunganga lang muna kami kasi pagod kami (at basang basa) kaya kain muna. heheheh. nakapagdance-dance pa ko. yay! marunong pa pala ako sumayaw, kaso di namin natapos sa 3rd stage. ang hirap eh. hahahha. after nun eh bumukas na ang anchors away! wheeeeee. hehehehe. unang round katabi ko si gwen. langyang babae nagwawala sya. as in! nagmumura sya ng sobra! hahahahah. lolz. funny. tas nag-second round pa ko. at nag-third. langya hilong-hilo ako pero okei lang. nyahahahaha. mukha kaming timang. after nun nag-"relaxing" swan lake kami. langya ka migs! you're such a bad navigator! mali mali ata napupuntahan namin eh. hahahahah. palpak talaga yun. nyahahahah. finally after... ewan minutes nakabalik kami sa dock. bleh. tas after nun eh napagisipan ng aking blockmates na may pera na mag- go! kart racing. si rose ay kaskasera mag-drive. pag natuto magdrive ng totoong kotse si rose wag kayong sasakay sa kanya ah! (joke lang!) hehehehe. panu ba naman kasi binangga nya si danika tas si roy. mejo scary kasi pwedeng tumalsik yung binangga nya. ehehhehe. pero ayun kinarma, bumangga sya sa puno. lolz. after nun... space shuttle! wah nagwawala ako! si dinno kasi nagccountdown eh. dun pa naman ako nag-ffreak out. ehhehehe. oh well. nagtititili talaga ako. di na ko maka-recover after. hahahha. last ride... wheel of fate. waaaaahhh. ang saya nun. kwentuhan sa taas habang nakatingin sa mga ilaw. hahaha. at mga camwhore kami. parang bawat ikot ng ferris wheel puro pictures. hehehehe. saya. :) after nun dinner. can i just say.. chanco si a pig. how can you eat a 2 cheeseburgers, spaghetti, chicken with rice and 2 fries and 3 drinks. plus a sundae?! where the hell do you put all those food things?! waaaahh. napagisipan pa ng ibang blockmates namin na mag-paintball kaya na-delay kami ng sobra sobra. pero okei lang. after nun.. uwi na.

which was kung nakauwi nga kami... nagpababa kasi kami ng shell sa may mamplasan exit (nung una di namin alam kung anu yun) tas nagpasundo si rose... apparently mali yung pinuntahan ng tatay nya at ayaw na kami sunduin. kaya tumawag si lime sa dad nya at nagpasundo sa kuya nya. buti na lang sinundo kami. yay. hahahaha. nakauwi naman ako... on a really BAD note. i don't like this house.

anyway, ayun ang aming EK trip. saya naman eh! hahahaha! :)

nga pala. gusto ko lang malaman nyo na pumunta ako ng EK na 600 lang ang pera ko. at umutang lang ako ng 100 para sa pagkain. ehhehehe. galing ko noh? ehehhe. talo ko si rose! may utang sya 300 at 20 sa kin. bwahahahaha. i rock pa din. lolz.

pishures!

2005-04-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

waahahhaah. wala akong magawa. pics lang. naghahalungkat kasi ako sa folders ko, nakita ko yung pics namin ni tots. hehehe.

eto kami nung first term...

hahahahah. tots ang payat pa natin. :p

eto kami last term...

in fairness. parang walang bago. lolz. hahahaha.

wala lang. hehe.

natatamad akoooo...

2005-04-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

i'm bored. my computer sucks. it needs total fixit stuff.

*.*

hahahaha. gawd i'm so bored. so-so. bleh.

*.*

meet charston. charston hahahaah. joke lang yan ni beni. hehehehe. lolz.

get over.

2005-04-10T10:55:00.000+08:00

anu ba ang ginawa ko nung friday? well, una nag-chem exam na geeeeeeeeez, di ko lam kung anu ang mangyayari sa buhay ko after nun... then pumunta kami ni reyiatots sa RP para kumain sa chef d' angelo (cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese fries! hahahah!) tas dumating si rachelle at kami naman ni reyia ay naghahanap ng beeeeeeeeeeeeeach stuffies. then nood ng ms. congeniality 2 (cool movie! swear. hahaha. aliw ehhh.) then nag starbucks tas nanood ng hide and seek (charlie charlie charlie. yuck. schizo. hahahaha!) tas ayun.. bumalik ng school. oh how productive. hahahahah. nasipa pa kami sa tambayan nag-end up tuloy sila sa amphi. hehehehe. pero okei lang. ang sarap talaga sa school pag gabi. tahimik... di magulo... ayun. walang tao. hahahaha. anyway, nag-end up kami na kakain (ULET! anu baaaaaaaaaaaa... pero subsidized ni melody. hehehehe.) at yung iba, ayun, pumunta ng GB3. ehhehehe. kumain din sila. haaaaaaay. yan ang napakaproductive lives namin sa tapat.

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saturday. pumunta ako sa birthday dinner ni azenith! hehehehe! thanks lah! :) big buddha kami, hehe. love the food talaga. at least iba sya sa food ng north park. ehhehehe. :p anyway, dami food, di ko lam kung anu pumasok sa utak ni lah at ang dami dami nyang inorder! hahahahah. pero okei lang, at least madami-dami naman kami. weird thing na nangyari.. nung dumating si roy, lumamig bigla. humangin. as in no kidding ah. in fairness kay roy, ibang klase powers mo. heheheheheh. anyway, after dinner... dapat pupunta kami sa temple bar. kaso, etong si migs chanco na to ay HINDI PINAPASOK SA BAR! bakit?!?! kasi naka-slippers sya. hahahahahah! ayun, nagalit si chanco at tumawag sa kanya father dear. hehehe. laftrip talaga magalit si migs. nag-ffrench pag galit! lolz.

migs *on cellphone*: dad! i wasn't allowed to go in temple bar! *silence* what? *silence* /french speaking migs mode... i guess he was trying to explain na di sya pinayagan pumasok sa bar kasi nakatsinelas sya... blah blah blah./ no no no no. it's okay. okay. bye.... AHHHHH! i feel much better!

hahahahah. sya. supposedly magstarbucks lang kami kaso anu naman ang gagawin namin dun?! kape?! noooooooooo... so ayun, mnag-red box na lang kami. ehhehe. videokeeeeeeeee!!! (+ malamang inom) ended up na ang katangi-tanging 3 guys na kasama namin ang mahina sa alcohol.. actually hindi sila mahina, namumula lang sila agad. hehehe. migs and fickis are shrimps. they turn really RED. as in pula. si roy? ewan ko, lasenggero ata yun eh. haahaha. (peace roy!) as for us... masama ata ang mag-down ng 2 tequila ng sunod-sunod. hahahaha. tas susundan mo ng vodka ice, mule at coke light. nyahahahahahahhahaha.

huwala lang.

meme... sabi ni hope.

2005-04-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

ang tawag ni hope dito meme. hahaha. di ko lam kung bakit. hahahaha
1. I'm: kiatots
2. I live in: alabang!
3. I love: YM!
4. People: on earth.
5. Life: soooooo hard.
6. I just ate: chicken
7. I wanna see: ghosts. hahahaha.
8. I play: pinball!
9. It's now: 12:54 and i'm supposed to be sleeping.
10. I'm wearing: shirt and shorts
11. My phone: is my photo album. :)
12. I'm worrying about: a lot of things. (i.e. engltwo and chem)
13. I wanna go: hibernate.
14. Britney spears is: someone who sings...... POP. it's gonna make you POP.
15. Good Charlotte: is a band... who is really noisy?!
16. Weather: i don't like heat. unless nasa beach or sa pool. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
17. My shoes are: comfy!
18. I drive: next schoolyear. hopefully.
19. I smoke: smoking things. HAHAHAHAHA.
20. My country is: a place where i grew up
21. My parents are: the best.
22. I think school is: my life right now.
23. Other sites i'm surfing aside from Friendster: wala nga eh.
24. I'm going to: become a doctor someday.
25. I think this post is: useless.

.:: people around me ::.

My mom is: wonderful.
My dad is: great.
My sister is: non-existent. i'd go for fellow only kids who are close to me (i.e. reyiatots)
My brother is: same as above.
My best friend is: somebody who knows me that much.
My crush is: huggie. ^_^
My boyfriend is: in the world of forms.
My grandma is: somewhere in Leyte...
My grandpa is: dead. and that was a long time ago.
My teachers are: good. but some are really bad.

.:: stuff that i have ::.

My PC is: slow. get me a new one! (again!!!)
My wallet is: purple.. it's supposed to be the same as reyia's but she lost hers!
My camera is: my phone. i want a digicam.
My books are: not being read anymore. :(
My accessories are: simple.
My sunglasses are: purple. :)
My towel is: purple... HAHAHAH!
My teddies: sleep with me. ehhehehe.
My clock is: really annoying. someday i wish you would stop and so will everything else.

.:: what i'm wearing now ::.

My shirt is: white. and it's really big.
My shorts/trousers are: blue and they are short.
My shoes are: sneaks.
My jacket is: melody's! heheheheh!
My socks are: white. and have border thingees.
My belt is: belt-like?!
My mind is: forcing me to sleep right now.

change........ waaaaaa.

2005-03-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

hahaha. gusto ko na baguhin ang layout ng aking blooooooooog. hehehehe. wala akong maisip na layout para sa bloooooooooog. darnit.
geeeeez. i am so bored.

bleh.

2005-03-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

i'm bored. wala lang. wala akong magawa. hahahahahaha. buti pa si charston nasa bahay ni melody. gusto ko din pumuntaaaaaaaaaaaaa... waaaaaaaaa.

productive.

2005-03-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaa. kanina nasa bahay ko si rose, ivy, jo at michelle. in fairness. di ko maintindihan kung productive or hindi yung ginagawa namin kanina. oh well. ehehehehe.

*.*

sana may magonline. wala akong makausap! wala na din akong magawa. wahahahahaah. nauubusan na din pala ako ng magagawa. lolz.

think.

2005-03-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

wala lang. wala lang akong magawa. wah. sana okay ang bukas ko. kelangan okay ang bukas ko. Lord help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

bibili kami ng scrapbook! hehehe. need tons op pishures. la la la.

ack. 1 year after.

2005-03-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

ack. 1 year after my whole life changed. 1 year after di ko na alam kung anu ang mangyayari sa buhay ko. at any rate, flashback tayo.

rarghs. 1 year ago kami ang nag-graduate. didn't occur to me na graduation na sa zobel ngayon. funny thing really, di ako umiyak noon. parang ang tumatakbo sa isip ko nun, "hey, the heck, magkikita pa din kami sa college eh. magkikita pa din kami." and everyone would always say, "oi, kakain pa tayo ng magkakasama sa taft ah!" oh blah. so anung nangyari ngayon? hello, the only time i get to see them is like... at least once in a month. or so at least si angela mejo mas madalas dun. mga thrice a month naman sya. where are my friends?! i thought we were gonna see each other pa din? eto lang masasabi ko, to those who are graduating already, don't promise na magkikita kayo ng friends nyo that much. maybe sa iba pwede pa, like those who are in the same course. pero reality sucks. you'd most likely end up being with your new friends. ick. ang sama pero totoo naman eh.

been thinking about things lately. haha. walang may alam nito kahit barkada ko, but i was soooooo scared when i entered college. hehe. but i'm really happy i found great friends in college. :) you made my life better. sabi nga nila it's gonna be so hard to forget your friends in college. they change your life so much. true. i couldn't agree more than that. even the smallest things, makes everything so special. haha. *mushy mode* oh yeah.

been reading other people's blogs lately. turned them into a telenovela of some sort. haha. nabasa ko yung kay pawie. damn. mas matatakutin ako kesa sa yo. hello, kung tutuusin, di ako matalino. as in wala ako sa rank ng katalinuhan ng aking blockmates. look at this, i failed math, and chem, ironically enough, i was one of those people who get high sa chem when i was in high school... oddly enough naisip ko, panu kaya ako mabubuhay sa med school neto?! kakayanin ko ba? sana. dapat. kelangan.

i tend to forget things na ayaw ko na maalala. buti sana kung ganun lang kadali yun.

*.*

wah. pero may mga bagay akong ayaw kong kalimutan. ever. there are things still worth smiling for. there are things that change life for the better. :)

wheeee.

2005-03-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

pfffft. everything... is finally done. ahahahaha. waaaaaaaaaaa. God, please help me through next week. breakdown mode.

on the other hand, nag-wai ying kami kahapon! yayness. love the food pa din. though mejo malamig nung gabi kaya i settled for my favorite tsibog. chickeeeeeeeeen! hehehe. ayun. ang dami-dami namin dun. ako, si reyia, chars, rose, arnel, denver, melody, ingua, beni, jade, tsard, rondel, elvin, jecah, enzo. mejo maingay kami kaya nakakahiya. ahahaha. pero it's not like we care. bwahahaha. ang dami nyong inorder na foooooooooooooooooood! hahahahah. busog. anyway, nakauwi ako ng mga 11 na. good thing di ako pinagalitan. bwahahahahahah. >:)

eto. saturday, just finished cwts. FINALLY. mejo emotional ang mga tao ngayon (e.g. lesley.) at mejo nagkasabog sabog ang mga tao dahil ayun, nahilo si ivy at exage ang dysmenorrhea ni peng. oh well. that's life nga naman.

hay nako. sana makaalis ako bukas. at sana makaaral na ako ng chem. kelangan ko ng mataas na grade! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

happeh happeh joy joy!

2005-03-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

happy happy joy joy! hahhahhahaha. wala lang. hyper daw. nababangag na ako. gaaaaaaaaaaaads. me not likey engltwo. like... ewwness na sya. sana matapos na toooooooooooo. anywayssssssssssssssssssssss...

happy birthday charston! heheheheheheh! matanda ka na!
eto ang pics for today. hahahah. it's elmo~!

eto ang birthday ni chars... si elmo ang kasama namin. ahahahahaha.

eto ang may birthday. mukhang batang lost. *take note. matanda na ang batang lost na yan. as in.*

hahahaha. wala akong pic ng mga kalokohan namin kanina. pero masarap ang cake na chocolate na justice league (yes! naubos namin sya!) at nilibre kami ni chars... (for the 2nd time! yung una taho! ahahahahah!)

nga pala... eto si beni.

isang batang lost. pero maporma sya. naka-shades sya eh. hahahahah.

at eto ang mascot namin nung eleksyon.

ang pangalan nya ay si tigger tapat. in fairness, cute naman sya ah. hahahahah.

sa susunod, dalawa na ang mascot namin. si tigger at si elmo. mwf ang schedule ni tigger. orange kasi. th naman ang schedule ni elmo. red kasi ang color. ahahahahaha. joke. :p

majority!

2005-03-13T19:40:00.000+08:00

hehehe. for people who knew that the general elections just finished, i'm happy to announce na may results na. :) yay! ehehehehehe. so here are the results. i'm just putting the names of the people who come from my party, so... erm. there. :) no bias ah. kaso di ko kilala yung candidates na iba sa kabila eh. ehehehehehe. :p

winners from TAPAT

Executive Board (6-0) 6th EB sweep of TAPAT
President: Army Padilla
VP- Academics: Oliver To
VP- Operations: Andrea Go
VP- Activities: Simoun Ferrer
Secretary: Kate Lim
Treasurer: Mito Dizon

College of Science (5-4)
College Assembly President: Edz Mendoza [whooooooooooooohoooooooooooo!!!]
FOCUS 2k4
Batch President: Lesley Pascual
Batch EVP: Patricia Palanca
LA Representative: Gwen Tattao
LA Representative: Mandee Comia

anyway, if you wanna know kung sino iba nanalo... punta na lang kayo sa blog ni beni. okei. :)

tapat. sa inyo.

sino ang dapat?

2005-03-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

sa DE LA SALLE UNIVERSITY, sino ang dapat? TAPAT!!!

ahehehehehehehe! TAPAT COS! sweep tayo 104! sweep tayo ulet!!! ahahahahahah! at shempre si edz mendoza, ang aming katangi-tanging CAP! go edzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!

at higit sa lahat... :) ang aming pinakamamahal na EB. :) we labshu soooooo much EB! eheheheh! TAPAT sweeps the executive board!

***

after 8 days of campaign. after months of training, after nights of meetings and tons of stuff and crap. it's all over. and i'm so happy, we made it through well enough. :) hehehehehhe. go COS. ang saya ng buhay natin. it's a landslide victory. though i must admit, mali ang pagbilang namin ni reyia! nooooooooooooooooooo! oh well. ahahahahahhaha.

to our beloved gov... chars! three time sweep! ;) i hate you pag sinabi mo ulet yung sinabi mo sa min kanina! grrrrrrr... andyan ka pa naman eh! ikaw ang kauna-unahan. :) 3 time sweep. :p

tapos naaaaaaaa...

2005-03-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

yessssssssss. we can sleep na. finally. after weeks. and weeks. and weeks of going home late and running around everywhere, it's finally over. wahahahahaha. wow. ang sarap ng feeling na alam mo ng tapos na ang GE and all you can do is wait. wait. and wait. plus technically feeling ko wala pa kami bukas dahil mejo stressful day yun. and malayo. oh well, mejo magiging first hand results na lang ang mangyayari. eheheheheheh. :)

hay. block. healthy discussion on school politics. ayoko na magsalita, mejo biased ang answers most especially if you come from the said parties. oh wells. magtalo kayo if you waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant.

tired.

2005-03-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

wahahaha. nakakapagod ang week na to. but regardless, i'm happy with everything that's happening now. :) ehehehehe. i'm happy i made the right choice nung first term pa lang. i'm happy i joined this party even if i was reluctant to. i'm happy somebody got me in this place right now. ahahahah. :)

nakakainis. parang nabobobohan na ko sa sarili ko ngayon ah. parang... blah. rargh. erghs.

laban pa tayo friends. kilala natin kung sino ang dapat. :)

it's been a long time.

2005-02-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

oh yeah, it's been a long time since i posted sa blog na to. so mejo pointless yung last few posts ko and wala pa din akong masabi ngayon. how fun noh?

anyway, hated the botalab test earlier. damn those pickled jars of weird looking seaweed thingies! aaaaaaargh!

hehehe. hay. funny yung conversation kanina. thanks for noticing now. i've known about it before... though ang odd, natatago talaga. hahahah. napaghahalata na nga ngayon eh. as in like now na. lolz. not that i'm scared, i'm fine with it really... it's just that, it's not time right now. taaaaaaaaaagal pa dapat ah. matagal pa. struck me to surprising pieces! ehheheheheh. good luck na lang kasi. pero ang saya nya actually. masaya talaga. :)

how coufusing life is. it's so hard to discover things that surprise you like nuts. heheheh. things you know deep inside but you're not so sure, up until right now you're not. it's so damn confusing...

at take note. di pa pala ako nagaaral ng genpsyc at ng intphil. and i have two tests tomorrow. saya noh?! waaaaaaaaaaa.

baliw na ako.

2005-02-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

wahahaha. anung ginawa ko kahapon? as usual, the unproductive lifestyle of meeee.

nstp: ayun. ended up wala pala kaming tutorial thingy. so yun, kami ay pumunta sa foundation day nila. hahaha. did nothing there though. pumunta na lang kami sa jollibee. wala kami ginawa talaga. hahaha. but they made migs eat burger machine. BWAHAHAHA. seriously. after nstp, decided to go with migs to school. ang tagal ng kanyang caaaaaar. pero okei lang.

hapon: went to RP with danika. bumili sya ng discmaaaaaaan. waaaaaaa. ako din. huhuhuhu. oh well.

back to school round 4. kakabalik lang nila reyia from nstp. met them in agno. hahahaha. wala. nakakatamad na umalis dun. mahangin eh... anyway, punta kina reyia after. bonding. at yellow cab. :) hehehe. cool. yellow cab.

happy valentines... :)

2005-02-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day! :) hehe. based on this color, it's bwue! how... blue this day. hahahahah. yuck.

*.*

yes, i do wear skirts. though iba yung ngayon, mejo mandated sya ni reyia. heheeh. special mention lang blockmates ko. wala po akong sakit ngayon at wag nyo naman ipagdasal na basa lahat ng pants ko para makapagskirt lang ako! hahahaha. anu baaaaaaaaaaa.

*.*

ang cute nung harana kei chars kanina. hahahaha. pinagpapawisan. blushiiiiiiiiiing. lolz.

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got tons of bawoons today! thankeeeeeeeee kei chars dun sa pink na balloon, kei melody yung bwue na balloon! hehehe. ako na yung gumawa nung iba. hahahaha.

rarghs.

2005-02-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

argh. i think i need a rest. from EVERYTHING. whoooooooo. i'm sooooooo tired. wah. i need sleep. like now na! wahahahahahah. i'm going mad.

*.*

point 2. blah. i really don't know why i'm keeping a blog. people keep expecting me to post stuff like what happened to me today and blah stuff. apparently i'm not like that. well, of course there are exceptions. hahahaha.

so earlier this afternoon, rose figured we'd go to the national library to research for herbal medicine thingees. (yes, we ended up we'd find NOTHING)stupid thing number 1. naiwanan ni jo yung id thing sa baggage counter. stupid thing though, she forgot magkakasunod lang kami ng numbers. and she had to go up and down that big flight of stairs. weird thing 2. this place is not what i expected. mainit, plus you don't get to see the books. they have to get it for you. what a weird library. argh 3. we didn't find anything. blah. that sucks.

*.*

tas pagdating mo pa sa school, biglang umulan at naghahanap sila ng hair dryer. the heck?! ang labo noh? bwahahahaha. rargh. eat lunch at 5 pm. weh.

sooooo. weird.

2005-02-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

hahaha. in fairness. oi blockmates, naka-chat ko si marvin. hehehehe.

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hay. wala akong magawa. kelangan ko matulog ng 12. kelangan ko pa pala gumising bukas. hehehehe.

cranky. yuck.

2005-02-06T11:39:00.000+08:00

been asleep the whole night. effingly tired from all the things i have to do. wahahaha. crazy.

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went to g4 with reyiatots. hahahaha. proof that autistic ang 2 only child na magkasama sa mall. nyahahaha. of heart to heart talks and bonding moments over cheese fries. wahehehehe. plus a lil' bit of bread talk and off to more talks. hahahaha. cute cute. :)

*.*

think about it. what's gonna happen after everything that's happening right now? think. what will be the change? what?!

*.*

hafta go to the parlor and get my hair trimmed. ehm. cut off. whatever. ang init na eh!!!

rainy day

2005-02-04T01:46:00.000+08:00

on a rainy day
i feel like I can change the world
cause somehow I know that it's all gonna be alright
and on a rainy day
i can feel my heart beating
and I can taste the tears falling from the sky

on a rainy day
(won't You come and save the world?)
on a rainy day
(I know You're looking down on me)

love
it keeps us hanging on
even when all hope is gone
i believe that Your love rains down on me
faith
it carries us away
it takes us to a place
far above this world
and I can see you in the clouds
on a rainy day

on a rainy day
i feel like I'm in tune
and I can clearly see how much I have to lose
and on a rainy day
i feel like I am free
cause I know You did it all to rescue me

on a rainy day
(won't You come and save the world?)
on a rainy day
(I know You're looking down on me)

love
it keeps us hanging on
even when all hope is gone
i believe that Your love rains down on me
faith
it carries us away
it takes us to a place
far above this world
and I can see you in the clouds
on a rainy day

won't You come and save the world?
won't You come and save the world?
won't You come and save the world for You and me?
won't You come and save the world?
won't You come and save the world?
won't You come and save the world for You and me?

love
it keeps us hanging on
even when all hope is gone
i believe that Your love rains down on me
faith
it carries us away
it takes us to a place
far above this world
and I can see you in the clouds, yeah
like a rainbow shining down
on a rainy day
yeah, on a rainy day
on a rainy day
(won't You come and save the world?)

*.*

salamat kei beni. naaaliw ako sa big dismal. :)

losing control.

2005-02-04T01:23:00.000+08:00

so much for falling into place. this is kinda scary. but i'm happy it's working out for me. or at least at this time.

saliksik today. *technically yesterday* hahahahaha. okei naman. saya naman sya. though i must admit, it would have been better if we got to bond more. waaaaaa. namimiss ko na sina ate geriz at si kuya mac. huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu. :(
i just don't wanna remember what the hell we were trying to do earlier. scary. but then... i got to think about stuff. :) kinda happy about it. kinda got me more confused. what? in short, nalabuan ako sa activity training thing ng saliksik. so different from what i was used to in zobel.

wow. life is so full of twist. and turns. and twisting again. so what do you do when that happens? waaaaaaaah.

ghost

2005-01-30T13:58:00.000+08:00

hehe. funny. someone can relate to me far better than someone i know. of course you know me for a lot of things. but at this rate? where are you now? i can't even find you anymore. you've changed so much. and i have no idea with the people you're with. at all. kahit friends mo di ko na kilala. oh well. sayang noh? kaw kasi eh.

*.*

bonding. nung isang gabi. hahaha. tots. isa pa. lolz.

*.*
I guess it's luck, but it's the same hard luck
You've been trying to tame
Maybe it's love but it's like you said...
Love is like a role that we play
But I believe in you so much
I could die for the words that you say

But you're chasing the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself,
As the real thing is getting away from you again
while you're chasing ghosts

Just bend the pieces 'till they fit
Like they were made for it
But they weren't made for this
No, they weren't made for this

i guess so.

2005-01-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

concert the other day. friday night concert. 6 cycle mind and sandwich and some other bands. haha. wow.

inuman. haha. in fairness maaga kami nakaalis. sayang. oh well. ahhahahahaha.

i guess it's like that then. i still can't figure it out anyway.

regardless.

2005-01-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

regardless of whatever you say. or do. or think. it's still going to be the same damn thing.

weird.

*.*

LEAP kanina. apparently, di ako nagising ng maaga. so i ended up going to school ng 9 am. seriously, this is the only time na lumampas ako ng 8 hours of sleep ON A SCHOOL NIGHT. *yay me.* got to reyia's condo around 10? di pa sya naliligo nun. hahaha. ayun. went to school ng 12 something for the LEAP na 1. haha. after nun, mcdooooooo. then COS day meeting.

so panu ko hahatiin ang sarili ko for COS day?! exercise na to. i will be running around for lesley's race and taking pictures for reyia's fun games. saya noh?! mamagickin ko na lang sarili ko.

*.*

argh.

think?

2005-01-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

give up?
nope.
damn it. wala na to.
hahahahaha.
give up na nga.

here's a better alternative. maybe it works better.
heeh.

freeeeeekeeeeeee.

2005-01-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

freekee. hahaha. tons of freekee stuffie. i just realized there's been a lot of things that happened to me since i started college, i realized a lot of things, and now i know who i can really trust.

don't drink red wine, beer and coffee in a span of 2 hours. ang weird ng feeling eh. hahahaha.

i'm confused. i still haven't figured out something, although i know there's something to talk about it. so how do you explain that?

there's something i should remember. i know people who understands me. i'm happy i found them.

*.*

andrea's debut. sayang dapat pala sumama na lang ako kay JM from school. hahahaha. nope, i wasn't drunk. hehe. konti lang yung drinks eh. HAHAHAHAH. anyway, sayang we didn't get to do anything for andrea. :) hehe. konti lang kami. 4. shet.

*.*

must study inoche2 today. :) good luck sa kin bukas. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

back...

2005-01-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

i'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack. hahahaha. la lang. just figured i'd post again. hehehe.

*.*

life sucks. trust me. i've been mixed up in a web of confusing situations and oddly related thingees that i cannot figure out. damn it.

so what's wrong with you? i swear you have to fix yourself. no efficiency with how you do things. honestly, you're good. but i know you can do better. fix yourself.

you're annoying. ang kulit mo. tigil-tigilan mo kakulitan mo. sasakalin kita pag sumobra ka na.

bonding nights. hahahaha. in fairness. they do work.

*.*

wai ying! wai ying. yuck. sabi ni melody hindi pa daw tayo nagsasawa sa wai ying. hahahaha. chanees fooooooooooooooooooood rocks. i'll bring hopee to binondo sometime. :)

*.*

oh well.

of these nights.

2005-01-16T09:34:00.000+08:00

of binondo food trips. and bonding moments. of kwentuhan nights. and depression blues. great. how much do we need to think then?

ate in binondo last night. particularly sa wai ying. waaaaaaaaah. :( gusto ko pa nung hakaw tsaka yung siomai........................ next week ulet! hahahah.

i've realized so much when i got here. i didn't know about these things before. i guess i found people so different from what i knew before. haha. i think i'm confusing myself.

*.*

slowly giving up. but i'm getting back up. i need to fix my priorities. and figure out how to pull everything up. especially my annoyingly low grades that need fixing. bwahahahaha. damn you. i guess there's a way out of everything. there actually is.

may star kagabi. kahit sobrang cloudy. :)

o_O

2005-01-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking too much lately. it's not supposed to be this way. i'm not stressed yet... (or so i think.) but i am really tired. for no apparent reason or whatever. waaaaaah. what's wrong with me. must be the extremely long breaks i have.

unproductive nights. and long nights to do nothing but think. so how the heck does one survive this way?

this isn't right.

2005-01-09T16:33:00.000+08:00

so not right. apparently i didn't know that my dad's supposed to have this birthday celebration thingy. i'm so not in the mood to party. or cook.

waaaah.

i need to work on my life. or at least my studies thingy.

i have a great inoche2 teacher. yay dr. j! even if you have the weird seagull story. HAHAHAHAHAHA. remember, insecticides can turn you gay. i'm not kidding.

i think...

2005-01-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

i need sleep.
i need a philosophy book.
i need clothes.
i need the nike cortez.
i need to wake up earlier.
i need to go to school tomorrow.
waaaaaaaa.

welkam bak.

2005-01-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

welcome back to reality friends. apparently, it's back to school tomorrow. (hahahaha.) and i have no idea what's going to happen this term. weeeeee. sana okei. :)

will buy new cortez shoesies! yayness. reyiaaaaa... akin yung bwue! hahaha.
wants to buy 2nd hand phone. in fairness nakaka-enjoy ang sun ah. hahahahaha.

boring.

2005-01-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

boring day. didn't get my haircut. (waaaaaah.) plus... all the electric outlets are broken. only one's working. hahaha. tatlong extension cords bago ako nakapaginternet. lolz. buti na lang napalitan na ng internal modem tong computer. kung hinde... disaster. hahahaha. :)

anyway... matatapos na ang pagkabato ko dito sa bahaaaaaaaaaay! whoooooooo! yayness! heheheh! :)

stars*

2005-01-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

if i could see you next monday
it'd be all right
i'll just hold on to the memory of tonight
and i could smile at 3 am
when i close my eyes
and i pretend that you're here
and you're listening
and you care about what i'm feeling
this optimism was never in my book
and now what a blessing
you gotta see how it took away
all the pain with the rain tonight
as i lie here thinking
how it would be all right
no pretentionss
no promises
just wishes
and all i am is grateful for the stars
which are you when they shine
they shine in my sky.
*hyp

restart

2005-01-01T14:26:00.000+08:00

happy new year! :)
it's time to start the year right. and i'm definitely doing it this year. hehe!
new year's resolutions should be kept. hopefully i'd be able to do it this year. (",)

recap.

2004-12-31T16:10:00.000+08:00

recap. rewind. 2004
january. disastrous. yeah. wow. what a sad way to start the year. ayoko na maalala yun... it's far too sad to remember. :( haaaaay. plus eto din yung time na nagsimula na ko magdecide. for everything.
february. i HATE this month. or at least sa year na to. i hated prom night. it's so hard to prove how strong your friendship really is. aaargh.
march. graduation... special sya in it's own way. :) thanks for everything. hehe. sayang last na yun. nagkikita pa naman tayo diba friends? hahahaha. :) one word. [sorry.]
april. bum. lolz. baguio. tripping. [hahahah. camp john hay rocks!] siguro ito yung last na nakasama ko kayo ng sobrang tagal. sana magawa natin ulet yun. sana nga...
may. started college...(?) haha. probably the most significant thing that happened to me at that time (or probably the only thing that happened to me that month.) in short, eto ako nung month na to -> frosh.
june. met people. a LOT of them. back to scratch talaga ako nito. everything is NEW.
july. anu bang nangyari dito? ah. i guess eto yung time na nagpaka-active ako sa tapat. [FE] found something i wasn't expecting.
august. nauntog ako. for the first time in my life... i just realized, i disappoint myself too much.
september. sick, crazy, everything. plus the start of a new term.
october. bertdaaaaaay! hahahahah.
november. teambuilding. tapos may isa pa. start here.
december. boy did i not feel christmas. disappointed myself once again. bad year.
...
really. wasn't a good year really. i have the weirdest feeling i started it bad. (actually i did.) now i'm not surprised why it's gonna be like this.
whatever happened to my life?

...

2004-12-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

pipol. so alone sa internet. mag-online naman kayo. kawawa naman kaming online. wala kaming kausaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap.

galing~

2004-12-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

astig. galing! hahaha. it's like - whoooooooooooooooooa!!!

interesting...

2004-12-28T11:06:00.000+08:00

ohhhhh. interesting. hahahaha.

kinda disaster day kahapon. actually okay lang... went to galle with beni, jm, reyia, and jenny. watched 2 movies and ate lunch/snack (?) and got jenny lost. hahahaha.

jenny got lost. tinakbuhan namin sya all around galle. hahahah. di ko lam kung san sya napulot ni beni... pero in fairness. di ko lam kung nagalit sya. hahahaha. :) joke lang yun jennyyyyyyy!
so happy together... sabaaaaaaaaw. nabobo ako sa movie na to. really. i think it was a bad idea to watch it before everything else.
mano po 3. in fairness, maganda sya. haha. but i think the second one was better.

*.*

stupid early morning thing. ROCKY! peste!!! that wasn't a good joke! it's not funny!!! don't do that again you crazy guy!!! arrrrrgggghhh!!!

ideas.

2004-12-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

it was a stupid idea...

...to watch "spirit of the glass". i thought it's going to be a REALLY nice movie. so much for spending 600 bucks for 6 people.
...to drink peppermint frappucino while the freezing wind is blowing outside.
...not to mix the whipped cream in the coffee.
...to join everybody else watching the MMFF.
...to bring one thousand pesos and expect that it will satisfy 6 people.

however... it's a good idea to...

...go out once in a while.
...go out with friends.
...enjoy the day.
...drink more coffee.
...worry about nothing!

yayness... nahyper na naman akoooooooo. whooooooooo~

hyper~

2004-12-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

btw, people. if nakita nyo yung pic nung cute na kid sa baba... that's my really cuteeeee cousin giaaaaan. :) hehehehe.

didn't sleep last night. erm. nung morning na. i was quite surprised the sun was already rising. kala ko nanlalabo lang paningin ko. umaga na pala talaga. HAHAHAHA.

i wanna get outta here. go somewhere. buti na lang pwede pa ko umalis sa monday. hahahaha. yayness. want to watch mano po 3 of whatever film fest entry that looks good. basta i want to watch a movie. i want to get out of here!!!

holidays...

2004-12-25T03:14:00.000+08:00

something screwed up the holiday cheer. something screwed up my christmas. waaah. :( sad. pretty blue right now.

went to mass earlier. first time i heard mass in latin. heeh. pretty nice though. hope they continue it every year. got back home and stared in front of the television. christmas wasn't in our christmas dinner this year. something screwed everything up. christmas day just passed by like some ordinary day. feeling lost right now.

my dad told me to open the christmas gifts. i didn't care. they weren't mine. he told me i always wanted to open the presents when i was younger. i always wanted to open them because they were mine. at least, that was the time they still gave me presents. so when was the last time my parents gave me a gift? hehe. no hard feelings though. i'm so used to it.

i don't like being an only child. especially if it's this time of the year. but sometimes i like being the only one they care about. coz you feel special. that's why they used to call me princess. USED TO. i repeat. used to. anyway, i've never had those big christmas dinners that other families have. i've never experienced having visitors for christmas. it's always the three of us. here. at home. just us. i don't like it. i want talk. people. not tv. whatever.

texted a TON of people earlier. i guess a guarter of them replied. funny... globe wasn't lagging earlier. aren't people texting as much as they used to? or christmas greetings aren't as important as before?

something screwed up my christmas this year. now i know what my christmas wish will be... i hope it's not gonna be like this next year.

still wishing you guys a very merry christmas. take care. :) sending you guys all the love and hugs and kisses you can get this *sparkly* holiday season. heeeeeh. ^_^ yabshu pipol. :)

*i am so trying to be christmassy. it's not working! hahaha.*

not like before?

2004-12-24T18:39:00.000+08:00

it's not the same like before. not the same holiday spirit i felt before. but nevertheless, it's still christmas. nothing to blame here.

first christmas as a college student. believe me, much of my time has been spent in front of books and notes, more than 10 hours inside school. yes, i've seen christmas thingees hung all over the university... just hung all over. i helped make a parol... but really. we made one... for some other reason. hehe. not bad. :) we won anyway. hehehe. it's way different than high school christmas... so to speak.

i've read beni's blog. true enough, totoo naman lahat ng sinasabi nya eh. hehehe. siguro nga ganun lang talaga. blame it on me... i have too many problems to figure out. hahahahaha. exage. pero ganun eh.

really. i know it's christmas. :) good for you if you're feeling it. i'm happy for yah. maybe i'll realize it's really christmas in a few hours.

anyway, merry christmas everyone. enjoy the holidays. :)

what's the essence of it?

2004-12-24T01:10:00.000+08:00

i'm still not feeling it. not a merry christmas for me. or it's probably because i have too many damn problems to take care of. crap.

i've been at home for three days straight and... geeeeeez. i can't take this anymore. i have to get out of the house! wahehehehehehehe. i've also had a really bad addiction to coffee lately. either that or i'm just trying to fill up my starbucks planner cardt thing. either way, i've been drinking espresso based coffees since... finals week. hahaha. ang sama na netoh!

yay! got new shoes. but i still have a big problem. argh.

untitled

2004-12-22T01:11:00.000+08:00

life is so confusing. wala talagang title na babagay sa life. untitled na lang talaga sya forever. basta ganun.

*.*

namiss ko na baby ko. hehehehe. :) la lang.

depression blues

2004-12-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

depressing day. i curse course card day.

well technically i wasn't THAT depressed. nung mag-isa na lang ako sa bus nadedepress na ko. kinda sad, i really needed to talk to somebody. kahit sinu basta nakakaunderstand sa kin. haaaay.

need to talk to someone... anyone?

or else... i'd be staring at nothing and do nothing... but think. of whatever is going to happen to meeeeeeeeeeeee... pesteng buhay talaga. o_O

i am me.

2004-12-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

way weird. dunno what's happening with me. hahahaha. i must be going nuts.

gawd i'm so bored. yes it's the never ending dillema of people who have gotten used to staying in school longer than the time they stay at home. like me! hehe.

beside myself. it's still me.

i am so senseless. fix me!!!

wala.

2004-12-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

start na tayo mabulok ulet sa boredom.
walang magawa sa bahay.
walang pera.
walang makausap. yayness. ganto ako ng 2 weeks.

pero course card sa monday. i am so gonna die.

think. think. think.

2004-12-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking. i've changed so much. like literally. hehehe. the effects of college... not that they're bad. but i've changed. everything changed. i don't think i'd be the same again. obviously i'm not used to being like this. something must be wrong with me.

term recap. makalat. though i must say my grades must be better. or something. well, except for chem. damn it.

i'm not feeling christmas. i know i've been buying christmas gifts and stuff but... is it really for christmas? di ko talaga feel. must be the stress from school. hehehe. i kinda miss the christmas feeling i get when i was in high school. it was waaaaaaaaaay different back then.

good stuff about my life right now. hehe. more friends. believe it or not, di na ko anti-social. di na ko yung kia nung nasa zobel pa ko. hehehe. dunno if it's a good thing or what but... hey. it's a nice change. :) i seriously wasn't expecting i'd be like this. hehehehe. but then, i'm quite happy with how i turned out. ugh. except for the grade part. hehehehe. must get my old brain back. HAHAHAHAHAHAH. oh well.

over. get it over.

2004-12-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

haaaaay. 2nd term is finally over. ang pinakasabog na term para sa lahat ng tao. literally. whoooo. though i don't know what's gonna happen on monday. hopefully... nasa tamang pag-iisip pa ko by that time.

masaya ako. tapos ang paghihirap ko ngayong term na to. but then... in fairness everything DID NOT work out for me this term. LITERALLY. sabog. sabog. sabog.

haaay. i like watching people when they get their gifts. la lang. parang di mo maintindihan kung panu nga talaga gumagana ang utak ng tao pag may natatanggap sya na gusto nya... or hinde. pero usually people like what you give them. panu kaya ako nakikita ng mga tao pag binibigyan nila ako ng regalo? basta ako... i'm always happy pag binibigyan ako. kahit anu man yun. hehehehe.

i am just so tired. sana... sana masaya ang pasko ko.

magic ba ulet?

2004-12-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

will i make magic again? sana. sana gumana sya ulet.

pagdasal nyo naman ako. please? kelangan ko talaga to eh. :( haaaaaaay....

breaktimes.

2004-12-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

yes break muna sa aral. bukas na ang todo aral sa chem. shet sana kasi pumasa ako. peste sya.

anyway... natapos din ang parol. in fairness winnable naman. at maganda ang pagkakagawa sa kanya. kahit todo cramming sya. hehe. :)

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ayabshu reyiatots. :) cute cute ng giffie mo sa kin. hehehehe. :)